The Day To Day

  I sometimes see the day as something that needs to be done. I walk to my car every morning. I listen to all the birds churping at each other. I think of how much I love listening to it.  I rather just sit at the curb and listen til the sun was fully out.  That sounds way more satisfying than a day at work. I start my new job tomorrow.  I'm trying to get excited... but overall, It feels like something that needs to be done.  I need good vibes for tomorrow. So if you happen to be reading this, I'll appreciate any silent prayers or thoughts towards my way.  This is a good move for me even though I'm full of uncertainty.  So good thoughts, good thoughts, good thoughts.  I just hope I can do a good job there.  Please let me handle everything they can throw at me... Sorry. That me speaking to any higher power that happens to be listening.  I got a hair cut. I'm going to shave, I'm going to ware a time (hopefully just tomorrow).  My sh...

So I was reading The Li'l Depressed Boy volume 5: Suppose to be There, Too.  There was a scene that LDB and his girlfriend Spike were at a concert with a band called Lemuria.  I naturally thought this was a made up band sense this is a graphic novel afterall. But during that scene, they were showing threads lyrics to a song they were playing.  So I thought, what are the chances of this being a really song.  So I looked up the band and realized it is a real band.  I found them on Spotify and listened to thier album, "the Distance is Too Big" and enjoying the crap out of the music.  Who would of thought. From a graphic novel.   

Unmotivated and uninspired.  What a sad way to be.  I can't describe myself any other way though.  I try not to  be. I tell myself that I'm happy. There is no reason not to be. I have a good job, a wonderful wife and a life that should be forfilling.  Yet,  I'm Unmotivated and uninspired.  I know my life is going to change soon. I got promoted, so new office, new computer workers, new job duties. I'm not looking forward to it.  I'll get more money and experience that will help me in my County career, not very excited.  Guess I hate change.  I'm going to be a father sooner than later. My wife wants to be a mother more then anything. I'm not excited about that either.  All I see is stress and more stresss. So much stress that there's no room for anything else.  I've forgotten how to relax and how to be disracted.  Everything is so fucking pointless that it's frustrating.  I use to love to be at coffee houses to write, ...