The Day To Day

My head is fuzzy.  I don't know what to think anymore, I don't know how to act any more.  I don't see the point half the time any more.  I don't know whats going on with me, so I"m just going to ramble and see what comes out.  Most likely a rant of an overgrown child.  Perhaps realizing that would make me calm down. I can't concentrate again.  My mind is running in circles on how i don't want to be here.  I should just stand up and leave and drive somewhere familiar.  Or perhaps not so familiar.  Perhaps I need to be somewhere different.  What would I do there though?  Stare into space, wishing i was someone else?  Wondering why I am so hung up about living and moving forward?  Have I hung on to something for so long that I completely forgotten that I was hanging on to it to begin with?    I hung on to it for so long that I even forgot what the hell it was?  It's just part of my life and stayed hidden for...