Anxiety

Usually self-diagnosable
Symptoms include stress that's out of proportion to the impact of the event, inability to set aside a worry, and restlessness.
People may experience:
Whole body: fatigue, restlessness, or sweating
Behavioral: hypervigilance or irritability
Cognitive: racing thoughts or unwanted thoughts
Also common: anxiety, excessive worry, fear, feeling of impending doom, insomnia, nausea, poor concentration, sensation of an abnormal heartbeat, or trembling
Consult a doctor for medical advice
Sources: Mayo Clinic and others. 


I looked up symptoms for anxiety yesterday and this I what it showed me.  I hate self-diagnosable crap.  I’m not Dr. and neither is google.  I do not have the ability to do so.  But after saying that, I can say right now, I felt just about all these experienced within the last week or so.  Except for Impending doom, that sounds way too dramatic for my taste.  Let’s just say, “Doomed to fail”.  I know, the word doom makes it more dramatic doesn’t it?  But doom to fail just means I’m worried I’m going to fail, so we can downgrade that to excessive worry, or fear or racing thoughts no?  At least I would like to anyway.  Either way, can’t deny I might have a problem.  I tried talking to my wife about it, but she didn’t really seemed to want to hear about it.   I can understand why I guess, but I got the overall feeling that she wants me to suck it up and get over it.  I can see that, but I’ve been trying to do that for quite some time now and I’m tired.  The “Sensation of Abnormal heartbeat” scared the crap out of me, but I can’t say I trembled.  At least not to my knowledge.  I guess we’ll see what happens there, We’ll see how today goes.  I think if I experience what seems like an anxiety attack again, I might have to go see my Dr. about it.  My wife wasn’t keen on the idea, but I have to take care of myself, and well, I guess she wouldn’t have to know right away. 

Anyway, I’m at work,  I had a good conversation with my manager about a meeting we had yesterday, I have an assignment that making this entry run short.  So I’m going to get work done.

Till next time,

Thanks for listening.


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