Do you La De Da?

Yesterday was interesting.  I told a white lie to my supervisor apparently.  I thought I saw our director pass by me yesterday morning ignoring me.  My supervisor was there and I thought saw that.  But apparently she didn't.  I thought it odd, but didn't think much of it after.  SO as I walked by my director's office, I noticed she wasn't in there. I asked her secretary if she was in earlier, but apparently, she hasn't come in at all yesterday.  So of course, I was What the fuck?  I could of sworn I saw her.  NO wonder my supervisor gave me "are you crazy" look.  So now I might be seeing people that aren't there.  Don't think i'm stressed or anything, but i guess that kind of thing is hard to determine by yourself.

Anyway, I still can't focus as much as I should.  I'm trying to get all my work straight, but I feel like I'm standing still holding the bag when someone expects me to fill it with something, but I have no clue what.  No matter how much I try to, it always seems empty.  I know its all in my head, and all isn't how it seems.  I can't help myself at times though.

I'm trying to go for walks again, I didn't walk at all this weekend, So i'm off to a bad start.  I should be able to go for a walk tonight though.  At least 2 miles.  That shouldn't be bad.  I just need to focus and be motivated.  I have neither of those right now.  I guess if i act like it long enough...... till next time.

Thanks for listening.

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