I need to find a good book to read.  Any suggestion out there?  I was thinking of continuing the Dan Brown Series with Character Robert Langdon.  , I read  up to The Lost Symbol, Still need to read Inferno.  And I think another book is coming out next year.  I didn't go watch the movie cause I still need to read the book.  Ah well.

Anyway, I couldn't get anything done yesterday at work.  I couldn't focus and I just wanted to hide under my desk and go to some kind of La La Land.  I couldn't though, even if I did hide under my desk.  My mind was racing too much, and too many things for me to handle.  I shut down once 4 o clock hit yesterday.  I couldn't really talk to my wife about it because she knows i'm just acting stupid.  I guess I know deep down inside its true.  I'm conflicted, as always.

Well, Today I have something that needs to be done by noon.  I guess I should get to it.

Thanks for listening.

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