Day to Day

A new year has started.  I'm usually get really depress when new years eve comes around.  Makes me think of how things should be, how things could of been, and how things still can be.  My mind goes all over the place.  I know myself too much, I can get a little optimistic, and next thing I know, I'm a year older and still in the same place.  Or at least feels like I am in the same place.  I'm sure I'm not alone on this.

My grandmother died in December, her services were on December 21.  I cried with my mother that day. My aunt had her annual holiday luncheon for her employees scheduled on December 20th at my grandmother's house, but that didn't happen, so she had it on January 10th.  It was nice, but weird.  I was at my grandmothers house and stuff were already missing and things had tags with people name on them.  I guess there is no avoiding things like that, but it made me really sad.  My grandmother presents was missed and it was way too noticeable for me.

On a side note, I did get to see some things my grandfather (that I never got the pleasure to meet) owned.  I saw a little black book he used, his military hat that was barley holding together (it was over 70 years old), and the wallet he had when he died.  I thought it was a shame this was the first time I saw them.  I wished it was my grandmother that showed them to me.  Made me realized how i could of been a better grandson.

Nothing I can really do about that now though.  My grandmother is with my grandfather now, and I pray I will see them when the time is right.

Till next time,

Thanks for reading. 

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